Friday, October 14, 2011


Got a solid "A" on my bio exam.

Doing a happy dance tonight!

(Okay, honestly?  I'm not going to lie.  Test anxiety is still a major part of my life with propranolol, with Concerta, with a light dosage of anxiety meds thrown in which are probably not needed but given my last 4 years, I figured why not!?).  I still struggle with going from whiteboard to exam forms, I still struggle not to worry about that very, exacting perfect score.  I'm working on not beating myself up for not getting a solid 100%.  In the end, if I do get an acceptance somewhere, that perspective change will serve me well.  That or I'll turn into a med school gunner that everyone hates, and I don't want to be "that" girl!

I took a year off from school.  Actually, almost two years.  Last year at this time, I thought the dream dead.

And everytime I get a great grade, the life pumps work a little better in the dream.

And everytime someone says, "You're going to be a great doc" - whether another student, TA, or professor, my feet snap a little faster on the pavement, my motivation to get back to studying for the next exam (2 weeks) a little higher.  Today, it was my bio TA who was trying to help me understand mitosis and meiosis at a better/deeper understanding than what was taught in the lab manual... and afterwards, he said he knew a few at the university's medical school were the 4.0 and jerks, people he said he'd never want as a doc.  "You" he said, "on the other hand, are going to be awesome!"

Tonight, just to make sure there wasn't some mistake on my exam score, just to make sure I can live up to the words people tell me, I checked it again...

Solid "A" ...


Lynda Halliger-Otvos said...

Excellent score !~! Couldn’t be prouder of you. Stay the course; I’m pulling for you.

A Doc 2 Be said...

Thanks, Lynda!!!