Monday, October 17, 2011

Wandering Paths

Last night after being in the library working ochem problems (yes, I get SN2 v. SN1 now) and a myriad of other things, I came home and found myself sitting idle.  A lot was accomplished this past weekend.  I slept for 12 hours straight from Friday night until Saturday morning (exhaustion was creeping up on me apparently), the house was cleaned, the dogs groomed (who knew THAT much hair would grow on a great dane???), and the laundry done.  In addition, the garage was cleaned out and repacked so I could get my SUV in the garage, and the groceries were bought (have not done that in months!!!).  My son was a large help in most of that... and God bless him, I'm the one that is blessed!

So, last night I started... wondering.  Of course that led to curiousity.  Which led me to websites....

A path wandering I should have not let myself go down.  I'm not going to lie, most days I'm okay with how everything transpired with Sir Hawtsalot, certainly not happy and some days - like last night - very sad, but overall, I'm okay with it.  Things turned out as they should, I suppose.

I found a picture of him looking bloated and heavy, his face jowly and terse.  Last time I saw him, just a few months ago, he was still trim and fit, smiling, eyes twinkling.  Maybe it was the camera angle, maybe it was really how he is now as he pushes 56.  At any rate, I missed him again last night... as I do many nights... before I push myself off the wandering path, and back into a text book.

Sigh.  Thankfully, I return to classes today, and work, and programming for next semester, and my son needs chemistry help, and the dogs need to be walked, and ... life goes on.  But I miss him... some days.

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